Opening the shower curtain a hairy spider at least an inch across clings to the acrylic tub. Yikes. “Go away, where I can’t see you”. “You can be here, but I don’t want to see you”.
Realizing he has nowhere to go, I take some tissue and smoosh him. I say an apology and toss him in the toilet
Flush.
He doesn’t go down.
Flush.
Damn he’s still there.
Flush. Flush. Flush.
Finally. He’s gone.
Shower and forget.
Several hours later…sitting at my desk, staring at my monitor…working on my next class. Two inches in front of my face a spider, smaller than before yet sizable, crawls down an invisible web landing on my desk.
Shit.
She runs under my monitor. I suspect she knows the other spiders’ fate. I don’t want to kill her especially now realizing my Soul is reaching out to me.
This is not coincidence.
This is my Soul speaking to me. Clearly.
My soul is shouting now…pay attention to Spider medicine. My recollection of Spider medicine is a bit sketchy. I grab my three animal medicine books and do my research.
Aha. Big Aha. Chills. Tears. I get it.
From Animal Speak by Ted Andrews: “The spider because of its characteristics has come to be associated by mystics and in mythology with three predominant expressions of magic. The first is the magic and energy of creation.
Second, it is a symbol of creative power, reflected in its ability to spin a silken thread. It is also associated with assertiveness of that creative force, of keeping feminine energies of creation alive and strong.
The third predominant magic of the spider is associated with its spiral energy, the links with the past and the future. The spiral web converging at a central point is something to be meditated upon by those with this totem.
Spider is the guardian of ancient languages and alphabets. This is why spider is considered the teacher of the language and the magic of writing. Those who weave magic with the written words probably have a spider totem.”
Searching on line and in other books…the same words bang about my head.
Write. Create. Write. Write. Write. Create.
When searching for meaning in a sign rely upon what resonates with you. Look for what jumps out and says “yes”. Notice how you feel in your body.
As I read the words creativity and writing, chills run down my spine, tears fill my eyes.
Here is my Aha.
I’ve been working on the book, Phoenix Rising, Embracing the Gifts of the Survivor Experience for a few years. Last fall I put the book aside. I needed a break. I knew eventually I would return.
Two weeks ago I felt a little nudging.
The book…don’t forget your book. I forgot the thought.
Until yesterday when a spider dropped in front of my face.
It’s time now. Time to finish the book.
The stars and planets are aligned perfectly.
Today we celebrate a powerful time of transition. A solar Eclipse during a powerful new moon on the Spring Equinox and at the 9th degree of Pisces, the last degree of the zodiacal wheel. A potent time for new beginnings as we say goodbye to the past.
The doorway has opened. My intention is set. My book will be finished, published, well received. The moment is now.
I love this clarity.
I love hearing the whispers from my Soul gently guiding my journey.
Would you like to have this magic too?
Here’s one last shameless plug for my class which starts next Thursday.
If you want change, if you want magic, if you want clarity from your Soul, there is no more perfect time than right now.
The Illumination Program
Come.
Create Magic.
Now.
Join this special group of like minded souls.